My higher power brought me my cancer diagnosis on Valentine’s Day. At the time, I felt that as a hug from her, sort of a wink like, hey Sally Blue, I gotchu. But now I’m seeing another dimension to it.... Read More

I was feeling depressed and under the weather this morning, ordering a bunch of immodium etc. for diarrhea etc. on Amazon (chemo prep). I got a shaver to strip off my hair, and I wasn’t feeling too excited about it,... Read More

All of a sudden you realize how wonderful your friends and your family are. Your heart opens to them, and their hearts open to you, in a way never before. This is wonderful timing. Because we’re all going to die... Read More

One thing that’s happening is I’m totally letting go of all my expectations of everything. It’s just crazy, because I thought it couldn’t be cancer, because it wasn’t in sync with my vibration, my timeframe, or my body’s way of... Read More

Tears in my eyes. Biopsy of my left breast yesterday to see if it’s cancer. This morning, crying, scattered. In meditation it occurred to me to go to an AA meeting. Went to Fireside. First AA meeting in two years... Read More

I’ve had this revelation before, and then promptly forgotten it. Once when Zaltana was ranting about society, how they think their control and rules are so valid when in actuality it’s all utter make-believe nonsense, how they cherish their illusions... Read More

Her bliss makes everything very supple, soft, smooth. The dakinis in the holy Temple of my body, they can do that. But right now, all my winds and channels are knotted up, in bad shape. And I’m always rushing up... Read More