My higher power brought me my cancer diagnosis on Valentine’s Day.

At the time, I felt that as a hug from her, sort of a wink like, hey Sally Blue, I gotchu. But now I’m seeing another dimension to it.

She’s telling me: It’s time for me to have you again. Of course she doesn’t really phrase it that way. But the truth is, she’s my first and only forever. She knows it like a heart on fire, even as she loves me from every angle, through AA, my lover, my family, my Kadampa sangha. But at the deep depth level of existence, she’s the one I’m most in love with, and the one that I always return to, and the one who will carry me through death.

She’s my real valentine.