I got swept up in a completely different river. It is stripping things away. The cancer makes things so real and it also makes me unafraid to just accept who I am and meet my life. It tells me how to change, let go. Not in words, but in the deep, irresistible energy that just pulls me into the deepest part of myself.

I faced stage IV and sat under trees preparing for death and it ended up not being stage IV. Everything now is a total luxury. I became earthborn and muddy, compassionate and single. I threw out half of my possessions. I forgave all my friends and family and let them love me. I stopped fighting the story. I became much softer and gentler.